May 8th, 2004

Time: 03:41 pm

goddam work, i hate it so much.....arghhh not that i;'ve doen any of it, but still! blah! :P so yeh anyway after the lasdt entry im kinda trying to keep a low profile. i think its working. the advantage is that i get to stay in with my new blokey... :D i wouldn't know what i would do without him, adam, sabine and dre...they are life savers. even though they know what i've done over the past few months. they still like me which is really what i need at the moment. still thinking about perhaps dropping out of uni. really depends whether i pass this year. which i think is highly unlikely.

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May 5th, 2004

Subject: i don't mean to be meolodramatic but i hate the world!! Time: 05:30 pm

basically everyone hates me and i don't know why...well thats actually a lie, coz i do, its coz of kate...and me, i know i was in the wrong when i started up an account called psycho_bitch on the university forums, there were so many people that hated her for various reasons. but shes the sort of person that corners u and u can't think of anything...its so shit, so i ended up coming up with the only thing i could think of which was her being horrible to ellie, which ellie willingly told me that it was sorted and she could fight her own battles. she asked me who psycho_bitch was and i told her it was me and other people. at leats im admitting to part responsibility yeh?! i did admittedly tell her it was becca aswell, and kate said 'no, it wasn't, it was all you' and that upset me coz i knew for a fact that it wasn't all me. yet i go on the site and all the posts from psycho_bitch have been removed...i think. anyway after she hadliterally cornered me in the toilets, i walked off and her and becca followed me shouting really evil things at me. i havn't done anything on it for like 6 wks... but i don't want to tlk about it anymore, basically im scared to leave the house in case she corners me again. however star of the day goes to: adam surprise of the day goes to: alix you both mean so much to me. love you people that love me. take care. flic xxx

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March 2nd, 2004

Subject: a beast is definately what she is...damn 3rd person refferaled bitch! Time: 12:45 am

...and theres me thinking that danie liked me, when it turns out that she is merely putting up with me, what a two faced cow! can u believe it??? apprently i am 'not the worst' but surly that means im in the running for it...arghh i think she feels threatened by me because i have been with her guy and i can be cool about it...i think they just kiss each other in the kitchen to rub it in...but ha! like i care :P goddam it, im not going to try so hard if she doesn't like me anyway...why should i be nice? why should i care? goddam the bitch. yeh so anyway...here i am, having just watched the oscar's for the 2nd time, and am now watching 'love story' a depressing romantic comedy where the lead female ends up dead, or so it says in the synopsis. i slept earlier and so am no longer tired now...ive lost my key...arghh the ppl in the film just said those 3 words. u know the ones i mean... and now they're all happy and playing in snow, i mean they're even eating it, whats wrong with these people? do they not know dogs wee in parks...you should never eat yellow snow! euchhhh! i used to be romantic with alex, and we were sweet, danie and chris and the people in the film are not romantic, they have no chemistry...! blah. anyway ill be off now. talk to you all soon, thanx for listening to me rant...god i hate people that fill out online diaries, with their personal lives and know full well that people read them, i mean why not say it to people's faces?!! gahh such cowards! flic xxx

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March 1st, 2004

Subject: at the moment i am.... Time: 11:47 am

well, last night i went for a bike ride in the dark and explored derby, and then stevie came round (he's been away for the weekend) then he went home to watchstarship troupers with ed on the condition that i would come round later. unfortunately this was not to be and helen rang me up moments later to tell me that her scouser had finished with her, for believe it or not the same reason as her ex did, (apprently they wake up in the morning and the fairy dust has warm off and they don't 'love' her anymore) poor helen, i think she's great and any guy would be lucky to have her...fuuuuck i have to go to a lecture...ill write more l8r. flic xxx

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February 29th, 2004

Time: 02:11 am

well im feeling very emo today ( i have never used that word b4 i hope i used it appropriately) i don't know whats wrong with me! :s arghhh! i just watched the end of Evita which is going to make anyone feel emotional really. hmm now i am going to watch the road to pedition which is stevies video, but i miss him :( oh well :D hope he doesn't notice i broked it :S have a good day people. flic xxx

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February 16th, 2004

Time: 01:57 pm

ok well today has been better and yesterday was cool too although i didn't actually leave my room, i tidied it, ahem, well i kinda sorted out my videos into genre. arghhh i can't wait to move into our new house, its gonna be wicked, i wanna gon and see it again and i wanna pick my room. wow im so excited! we;re sposed to be going out tonight, i want to but i really don't know if i can be bothered, i think i will go to the friary but we'll see what happens after that... arghh i need a bloke i mean i know i got stevie (my boy bf) but thats all he is and all he wants and i want him to be, he is about the only one stopping me from going completely insane! and depressed about not having a guiy, but its ok coz i have stevie :D anyway i am at uni now and need to go home to get food, and then go and sign the contract. ooo how exciting!!! bye xxx f x

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February 15th, 2004

Subject: i hate danie! Time: 02:31 pm

i am here simply out of pure frustration at my flatmates gf who seems to have a major problem with me for some reason and thus has decuided to write it in ehr live journal. she hasn't even met me, i have no idea what she's playing at...some people have such attitude problems, i mean i know that shes had issues and shit, but hasn't everyone? and chris isn't helping coz he tells her things im joking about e.g she was being evil to me so i said jokingly ' i hope shes not into wicca, coz she might cast a spell on me :S' but noooo, chris went and told her that as if it was a personal insult. she seems to think that i abuse him, when only if she new some of the things that chris hasn't told her, and ive been sworn to secrecy about, but in fairness i am going to lose very little if i tell her. wheras i know this sounds harsh butri will have hurt her and atm thats exactly what i want. arghhhh i can not portray my pure frustration over the internet...she keeps changing her mind about me, saying om evil and that shit and then saying ' i only want to get to know you' blah blah blah....arghh i hate her!!!

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